When I’m not with you, I feel so alone.
But if all I do is bother you, then I would rather be lonely..

This. is how I feel.
Don't say that it's over, I'd kill to be closer.

Life's been hell.
Happiest and worst days of my life so far.
Almost left my house.


One day.. I'll make you smile..

._. i.. just.. it hurts now. i cant say i love eric, when i do. but i love him like a brother. but shugo's jealous of that. so i cant say it to eric. and it hurts shugo to say i love him. so if i say it to no one, who do i hurt?

just me.

isn't it better like that?

why cant i do anything right?
i'm gunna jsut lose him again.
and then i'll just start dying all over again.
it's slow and painful
but if it makes him happy..
i'd do anything.


if i don't exist anymore, will i still hurt people?