I woke up. o_o
Feeling kinda okay.
He regrets it already. >.>
Good!
But she already accepted -_-
So he has to choose which girl he wants.
Not gunna write much.
I will later tonight. >.>
Thanks for reading, sweetie. =D <3
So what do you do.
When the thing you lived for..
Is taken away?
You have nothing to live for.
Bleh -.-
This is so stupid.
TT_________TT;
Apparently he wants me back.
Apparently he can hardly resist the temptation.
But yet he still needs two weeks.
Why?
Two weeks is enough time to lose all hope and start trying to move on...
Day One Part 2 - Chapter 23.
He wont talk to me, go fucking figure.
But..
He calls me Sigyn. And he's Loki.
Sigyn is Loki's wife that even after h betrayed her, and had bastard children with another woman, she held a bowl over his head to save him from having snake venom pour on his face.
Loki is the god of mischief.
So does this mean he'll cheat on me?
And fuck another girl?
Would explain why he bought a condom.
I'm slowly getting angry.
You don't fucking replace your girlfriend with someone so much like her.
You don't replace her just because you're bored of her.
AND I HAVE TO FUCKING COME ONLINE AND WAIT FOR HIM WHILE HE TALKS TO THAT FUCKING LITTLE BITCH.
Yeah.
I can get angry.
Just..
Not when he's round.
So go ahead.
Sleep with her.
Maybe if you're fucking lucky I'll wanna speak to your face.
Even kiss her.
Fucking betray me more, and I won't have a life with you.
And I'll fucking get into all that shit no one wants me to.
I'll be the "bad girlfriend".
Shit.
I could do so much better than this fucking abuse.
You don't make love to your girlfriend when you don't love her.
That's just low, even for you.
I'm just the girl next door.
Today sucked.
I almost broke down.
The end.
But..
He calls me Sigyn. And he's Loki.
Sigyn is Loki's wife that even after h betrayed her, and had bastard children with another woman, she held a bowl over his head to save him from having snake venom pour on his face.
Loki is the god of mischief.
So does this mean he'll cheat on me?
And fuck another girl?
Would explain why he bought a condom.
I'm slowly getting angry.
You don't fucking replace your girlfriend with someone so much like her.
You don't replace her just because you're bored of her.
AND I HAVE TO FUCKING COME ONLINE AND WAIT FOR HIM WHILE HE TALKS TO THAT FUCKING LITTLE BITCH.
Yeah.
I can get angry.
Just..
Not when he's round.
So go ahead.
Sleep with her.
Maybe if you're fucking lucky I'll wanna speak to your face.
Even kiss her.
Fucking betray me more, and I won't have a life with you.
And I'll fucking get into all that shit no one wants me to.
I'll be the "bad girlfriend".
Shit.
I could do so much better than this fucking abuse.
You don't make love to your girlfriend when you don't love her.
That's just low, even for you.
I'm just the girl next door.
Today sucked.
I almost broke down.
The end.
Day One - Chapter 22.
So.
Last night we took a temporary break.
For two weeks.
And.. I already cant handle it.
I want him..
But he likes someone else now..
So he's going out on a date with her. ;-;
And I'm just.. Gunna be alone..
And it hurts..
I cant eat or sleep.
My heart wont stop fucking hurting..
I just.. Wanna be good enough for him...
--
So it's day one. I'm giving a day by day update. Why? Iuno..
Couldn't sleep last night. Woke up every hour or so and felt completely and utterly alone.
I have to be his best friend again..
So it's morning now. Talking to him.
I'm a fucking masochist.
He said.. maybe we'll shorten it.
He wants me there every day.
And it hurts.
More than anything else.. ;-;
I dont know if I can take this..
What if he likes his date with her?
What if he doesn't want me?
She's fucking.. So much like me..
Just real.
Just.. More out-going.
She's not shy..
After two years.. I wasn't good enough? x_x
If you read this, no telling anyone.. ._. But well, me.
Don't tell him..
Just let him be happy..
Last night we took a temporary break.
For two weeks.
And.. I already cant handle it.
I want him..
But he likes someone else now..
So he's going out on a date with her. ;-;
And I'm just.. Gunna be alone..
And it hurts..
I cant eat or sleep.
My heart wont stop fucking hurting..
I just.. Wanna be good enough for him...
--
So it's day one. I'm giving a day by day update. Why? Iuno..
Couldn't sleep last night. Woke up every hour or so and felt completely and utterly alone.
I have to be his best friend again..
So it's morning now. Talking to him.
I'm a fucking masochist.
He said.. maybe we'll shorten it.
He wants me there every day.
And it hurts.
More than anything else.. ;-;
I dont know if I can take this..
What if he likes his date with her?
What if he doesn't want me?
She's fucking.. So much like me..
Just real.
Just.. More out-going.
She's not shy..
After two years.. I wasn't good enough? x_x
If you read this, no telling anyone.. ._. But well, me.
Don't tell him..
Just let him be happy..
I don't wanna let you go - Chapter 21.
But I haveta let you go.
I cant let you go, boy.
..Bleh.
I keep trying to be happy.
And failing.
All I do is try to make him happy.
But does it work?
Rarely.
And so my happiness was lost.
And my heart started to feel less ad less.
It's freezing all over again..
Will this fall apart..?
Will I lose you..?
When I'm with you, everything seems better
We were meant to be together
I'm in pain when you're away
Come on and save me I'm loosing my touch
Day after day cause I miss you so much
Come on and save me I'm loosing my mind
Waiting and waiting for you to be mine
I cant let you go, boy.
..Bleh.
I keep trying to be happy.
And failing.
All I do is try to make him happy.
But does it work?
Rarely.
And so my happiness was lost.
And my heart started to feel less ad less.
It's freezing all over again..
Will this fall apart..?
Will I lose you..?
When I'm with you, everything seems better
We were meant to be together
I'm in pain when you're away
Come on and save me I'm loosing my touch
Day after day cause I miss you so much
Come on and save me I'm loosing my mind
Waiting and waiting for you to be mine
SickSickSick - Chapter 20.
I'm sick. x.x
Again.
It sucks.
And I cant eat anything without feeling sicker.
For the past week Dx
Again.
It sucks.
And I cant eat anything without feeling sicker.
For the past week Dx
In Heaven and Hell - Chapter 19.
A lot of people don't exactly.. Know a lot about me.
Then again I don't really tell anyone.
My life contrasts in many ways.
One second is Heaven, the other is the equivalent of Hell.
You know something's wrong when you gotta fake yourself with your boyfriend.
Well anyways, let's get on with the story.
Last night I was told by my darling mother that once I turn eighteen and graduate from high school, I am no longer welcome under her roof. So I am being kicked out of my own house once I graduate. This is.. Lovely.
Secondly, my mother seems to believe if I were to have a spare period during school hours, I would not like I had planned, sit in the library and get a jump start on homework, but become a hooker, druggie, drug-dealer, steal from stores, cut myself, become an alcoholic, pop pills, and drink+pop pills to try and commit suicide.
What a darling way for a parent to think of their child and tell them.
She also proceeds to tell me that I'm pretty much a failure, and tells her friends I'm the problem child. Also that I am "verbally abusive" to her, whilst the most I've ever insulted her is saying she was paranoid about me cutting myself and such.
My best friend told me that I lost my smile.
I'm to.. Out of it to cheer my boyfriend up and make him happy.
I can barely be happy or smile anymore.
Can barely laugh.
I play the happy-happy big/lil sis. But for once I can't do my job. Sometimes even I need a little help.. Oh well. Life goes on.
I'll write about Heaven one day. But that's my personal dream world where everything works out. Where everyone's happy and fine.
I'll live. I'll survive on my own all over again.
I can beat this.
Just don't give into temptation.
Ugh.. My nightmares started again..
Then again I don't really tell anyone.
My life contrasts in many ways.
One second is Heaven, the other is the equivalent of Hell.
You know something's wrong when you gotta fake yourself with your boyfriend.
Well anyways, let's get on with the story.
Last night I was told by my darling mother that once I turn eighteen and graduate from high school, I am no longer welcome under her roof. So I am being kicked out of my own house once I graduate. This is.. Lovely.
Secondly, my mother seems to believe if I were to have a spare period during school hours, I would not like I had planned, sit in the library and get a jump start on homework, but become a hooker, druggie, drug-dealer, steal from stores, cut myself, become an alcoholic, pop pills, and drink+pop pills to try and commit suicide.
What a darling way for a parent to think of their child and tell them.
She also proceeds to tell me that I'm pretty much a failure, and tells her friends I'm the problem child. Also that I am "verbally abusive" to her, whilst the most I've ever insulted her is saying she was paranoid about me cutting myself and such.
My best friend told me that I lost my smile.
I'm to.. Out of it to cheer my boyfriend up and make him happy.
I can barely be happy or smile anymore.
Can barely laugh.
I play the happy-happy big/lil sis. But for once I can't do my job. Sometimes even I need a little help.. Oh well. Life goes on.
I'll write about Heaven one day. But that's my personal dream world where everything works out. Where everyone's happy and fine.
I'll live. I'll survive on my own all over again.
I can beat this.
Just don't give into temptation.
Ugh.. My nightmares started again..
Oh my god, she did a survey! You bastard! - Chapter 18.
Done cos I mis my damn brother. XD So I stole this from him, and the title. Huzzah!
How did you meet the last person you kissed?
Uhh.. Hm. 552. Chatroom in there. Nena-Nena dragged me in there to keep her company, and the rest is history. xD
How late did you stay up last night?
Maybe 1AMish? Was beating the Pokemon League on Pearl. >.>
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a s?
Nope. o.o Unless you count guinea pigs..
Have you ever dated someone taller than you??
Try like.. Everyone! >.> Everyone's taller than me! T-T;;
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Joanna. o.o
Do you hate anyone?
Nahh, too lazy to hate.
Do you miss anyone?
Shugo and Eric. o.o
What does your crush do to make you mad?
Kinda. xD Makes me frustrated. Like when he's a perv, or tries to make me jealous, or messes with people, or just tries to piss me off.
Who is making you feel the way you do right now?
The way I feel? >.> I'm sleepy. So I guess.. me?
What are you excited about?
Uhm. Either seeing Shu, beating more of Pokemon Pearl, or going to sleep. >.>
Plans for tonight?
Sleep plzes.
Do your boyfriend/girlfriends ex’s like you?
No. XD They hate my guts.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Prolly just talking to Shugo, playing Pokemon, and playing on the compie. >.> Maybe watch anime, and download Lunia too..
Have you ever been used?
Plenty of times. o.o
Do you like to be in a relationship?
Yeah. xD Feels really nice. Though kinda sucks that I cant flirt no more, but oh well. >.>
What are your plans for the next weekend?
Since I'm with my mom.. -.- Prolly do a lot of work, get yelled at, and play DS games and be bored and miserable.
What is bothering you?
My sleepyness and lack'o'Shu.
Did you ever lose someone you loved?
Iuno. Dunno if I really loved her or not. Know I disliked her a suuuuuuuper bunch.
What are you doing right now?
This survey an listening to "Me and the Moon".
Why do people like you?
'Cos I'm freaking Kami, man. XD That's all there is to it.
Are you in a relationship of some kind?
Yeah. ^^ Been in one for ages.
Do you like anyone?
Like on an extremely LARGE scale. >.> So kinda love I guess... =stabs mushyness.= T~T
Are you scared your going to get your heart broken?
Of course. Every single day I wake up and wonder if I'll lose the things I care about.
What's hurting you right now?
My sleepyness. >.> Eyes hurtttt.
Are you sleepy?
YES I AM. ToT
Can you do the splits?
Naw. D= Not that flexible in my legs, just my arms.
Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
My mom. =D And distance. And the cost of flying to another country to live there. o_o And school.
Do you let people treat you badly?
Yeah. o-o So?
What color is your hair?
Brown right nao. >.> Kinda golden-orange sometimes in the sun.
When was the last time you talked to the person you like?
Last night. ._.
Is there someone that you can’t stop thinking about?
Yush! o.o
Do you have any tattoo/piercings?
Yeah. o.o Ears are pierced twice.
Do you know anyone that treats there gf/bf poorly?
Mm... Me I guess.
Do you wanna be in a relationship?
o.o I'm in one..
Would you kiss someone other than the last person you kissed right now?
Ew no.
How has the week been?
Pretty shitty.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yeah. People screw up. Give them another chance..
Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Uhhh... Since I cant remember from my phone, we'll go with msn messages, which would be Ani, who spammed offline messages to me. XD
Have you made someone mad today?
Prolly my mom cos I'm uber clumsy today. >->
Does someone hate you?
Yeah. =D Lotsa people!
When someone tells you a lie, do you call them out on it?
Not usually, unless they're being a 'tard.
Do you like when boys are assholes?
Nuh. T-T
Do you like it when girls are bitches?
Ew no. >.>
Can you last in a relationship more than a year?
Yeah. =P Almost on my second year.
How did you meet the last person you kissed?
Uhh.. Hm. 552. Chatroom in there. Nena-Nena dragged me in there to keep her company, and the rest is history. xD
How late did you stay up last night?
Maybe 1AMish? Was beating the Pokemon League on Pearl. >.>
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a s?
Nope. o.o Unless you count guinea pigs..
Have you ever dated someone taller than you??
Try like.. Everyone! >.> Everyone's taller than me! T-T;;
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Joanna. o.o
Do you hate anyone?
Nahh, too lazy to hate.
Do you miss anyone?
Shugo and Eric. o.o
What does your crush do to make you mad?
Kinda. xD Makes me frustrated. Like when he's a perv, or tries to make me jealous, or messes with people, or just tries to piss me off.
Who is making you feel the way you do right now?
The way I feel? >.> I'm sleepy. So I guess.. me?
What are you excited about?
Uhm. Either seeing Shu, beating more of Pokemon Pearl, or going to sleep. >.>
Plans for tonight?
Sleep plzes.
Do your boyfriend/girlfriends ex’s like you?
No. XD They hate my guts.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Prolly just talking to Shugo, playing Pokemon, and playing on the compie. >.> Maybe watch anime, and download Lunia too..
Have you ever been used?
Plenty of times. o.o
Do you like to be in a relationship?
Yeah. xD Feels really nice. Though kinda sucks that I cant flirt no more, but oh well. >.>
What are your plans for the next weekend?
Since I'm with my mom.. -.- Prolly do a lot of work, get yelled at, and play DS games and be bored and miserable.
What is bothering you?
My sleepyness and lack'o'Shu.
Did you ever lose someone you loved?
Iuno. Dunno if I really loved her or not. Know I disliked her a suuuuuuuper bunch.
What are you doing right now?
This survey an listening to "Me and the Moon".
Why do people like you?
'Cos I'm freaking Kami, man. XD That's all there is to it.
Are you in a relationship of some kind?
Yeah. ^^ Been in one for ages.
Do you like anyone?
Like on an extremely LARGE scale. >.> So kinda love I guess... =stabs mushyness.= T~T
Are you scared your going to get your heart broken?
Of course. Every single day I wake up and wonder if I'll lose the things I care about.
What's hurting you right now?
My sleepyness. >.> Eyes hurtttt.
Are you sleepy?
YES I AM. ToT
Can you do the splits?
Naw. D= Not that flexible in my legs, just my arms.
Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
My mom. =D And distance. And the cost of flying to another country to live there. o_o And school.
Do you let people treat you badly?
Yeah. o-o So?
What color is your hair?
Brown right nao. >.> Kinda golden-orange sometimes in the sun.
When was the last time you talked to the person you like?
Last night. ._.
Is there someone that you can’t stop thinking about?
Yush! o.o
Do you have any tattoo/piercings?
Yeah. o.o Ears are pierced twice.
Do you know anyone that treats there gf/bf poorly?
Mm... Me I guess.
Do you wanna be in a relationship?
o.o I'm in one..
Would you kiss someone other than the last person you kissed right now?
Ew no.
How has the week been?
Pretty shitty.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yeah. People screw up. Give them another chance..
Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Uhhh... Since I cant remember from my phone, we'll go with msn messages, which would be Ani, who spammed offline messages to me. XD
Have you made someone mad today?
Prolly my mom cos I'm uber clumsy today. >->
Does someone hate you?
Yeah. =D Lotsa people!
When someone tells you a lie, do you call them out on it?
Not usually, unless they're being a 'tard.
Do you like when boys are assholes?
Nuh. T-T
Do you like it when girls are bitches?
Ew no. >.>
Can you last in a relationship more than a year?
Yeah. =P Almost on my second year.
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