Insomnia - Chapter 2.

Song: Only One For Me.
Arist: Brian Mcknight.


..So. I guess this is entry two.

Iuno.

This is really weird.

This week wasn't so hot.

Come to think of it. I've been listening to that song for almost an hour, and barely caught any lyrics to it.

So.

Monday. Day off school, was pretty good. Lonely day, barely any sleep.
Tuesday. Had a severe panic attack. Another lonely day. Barely any sleep. Spent most of the day trying to recover from the attack. Because it was that bad..
Wednesday. Still recovering. Took forever to fall asleep. Then woke up at 1:30 with blood-sucking bugs on my face. =shudder.= Was up for the rest of the night.
Thursday. Was tired from being up most of the night. Couldn't do any work. Owen, the new guinea pig from the Rescue, came to us. Spent most of the day helping with that.
Friday. More yelling than usual by the family. More.. Listening to how much they dislike me. Gabe lost his cell phone. Nathan gave it to me. And then.. I had to run through to the other side of the school (Weak lungs do not approve of this running) to catch Gabe before school ended. And guess what. Yeah. He ended up kissing me on the cheek in front of my best friend, zee gossip queen, Crys. And.. Gabe.. He knows I'm taken..
Everyday: Being yelled at, insulted. Treated like shit for my existence. Fun stuff, kiddies. And being really lonely.
Today. Went to Anime North, the anime convention here. Met up with friends. Bought a few things (Mostly Hinata based..). Bought him something. Bought sis something. Bought my friends a few things, only to have them save they were tired and wanted to go home, which pretty much meant that I had to go back home. Rode

I also have to write an essay for Sociology/Psychology/Anthropology class, then present it. Plus one for English that I over-did the extension. Because I cant work. I can't concentrate. And study for my Biology exam and do extra credit so I might actually pass.. Plus hand in a Biology lab. And start my new English project.. But guess what. I cant freaking concentrate to do anything.

Oh god.
Oh god.
Oh god.

And I miss another night of being with him.. And. Again, I cant help but cry. because maybe if I wasn't so stubborn.. Maybe then he's know how much he really means to me..

Love hurts.
...Yeah. Really original thar' Kami.
But it's true.
Because it hurts so damn much.. Being this close, yet so damn far away.
I don't know why I'm admitting this.. But.. Even if it means I see him less, I find.. I cant smile as much. Or act happy around people. It's.. Like some crazy addiction where I crave the love. I'm.. Okay with just talking. With just being together.
Why is that so much to ask for?

Shit.. I've spent all weekend crying. And shit ain't even that bad. Guess thas'what happens when you keep things inside, and let them build..

Cats and wolfs don't mix.
NaruHina will never work.
Certain people were just made to be alone.

And maybe..
Just maybe..
I can't live without you..
Happy now that I admitted it..?


He said he can't live without me either..
I really wish that were true..

Hold fuck I sound like a drama queen.
Ugh.

Song Two: Is It You.
Artist Two: Cassie.

Something as simple as "cheer up" made me cry..