Listening to: Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit.

EDITED COS I SAY SO.

It's harder than you think.
It's really hard to stay away.
It's torture to stay away, and watch someone else..
Just go in and replace me.
But.. Shit happens.
And people move on.
If you really don't need me anymore..
I guess there's no point of me being here, huh?
'Cos no one needs me anymore.

I..
Was gunna give up.
And apologize until my heart bled.
But..
You left..
So..
I guess I'll have to wait..
Because you're not the only one who got hurt...

If she can make you happy, why do you need me?
Thing is..
You don't.

Okay so.
o_o My dream was really weird.
So now you can read about it. xD

So I was in Aerith's body from FF, and Kyo, Yuki, and Tohru from Fruits Basket were there along with Ted from Scrubs. o_o; And a few other people that I didn't recognize.

So we went to live in this huge mansion, and all seemed well. But nothing is great in my dreams anymore. @@;

So. Shugo was Kyo, and Valo was Yuki.. xD And they were fighting over me instead of Tohru, which was really weird. And Tohru was just being a ditz the whole time, and kinda set the kitchen on fire.

S'yeah. One of the hostesses took Ted up into the room. She was blonde and dressed in a maid's uniform. o.o And I swear I saw part of a body under the couch they sat on. And of course, it all got worse from there. Last I saw of Ted was her leaning in to kiss him on the neck, and SCENE SWITCH.

This is when the brunette maid was cooking in the kitchen, and Tohru scared the crap outta her by sneaking up on her, and the maid threw the pot of boiling water everywhere, and melted Tohru. o_o Like. Tohru freaking DIED.

But no one seemed to notice. xD Yuki and Kyo kept fighting and beating each other up. but then we were all getting scared cos Tohru and Ted disappeared. So we went next door to this huge department-store looking house where my mom's friend Maria lived. o_o Ch'yeah. It was like, Yuki and Kyo and some other person.

So we stayed there and explained to Maria what was going on. oo; We stayed the night, but I woke up and I was back at the mansion. And I was all alone. D: I was on the cold floor in like, Aerith's pink dress, and a gold bangle on my upper left arm.

So then i got up, and I was in some kind of balcony thingie where there were different levels, and some were just.. Floating. o_o But I could tell that I was still at the mansion.

And then, all these ninjas came out in clothes that looked like they were from Samurai/Dynasty Warriors. o-o; And they were poison ninjas, and their leader had these long metal claws like Wolverine. And she's all like; "You can't escape! We're already got all of your friends, you're the only one left. No one is going to save you."

And I was all "No! We trusted you! You couldn't have hurt anyone!" So the leader with the cat-claw things came at me, and her fighting was like.. Majestic dancing. if I wasn't trying to save my own life, it would be beautiful. XD

So eventually I got the chance to run away, which meant jumping off the platform, which somehow landed me on the roof. And when I was up there, I saw a body. It was the brunette maid. o_o

She was barely alive, and whispered something like "Go get help, I'll be fine.."

So I ran off again, and the last scene shows me in front of the screen, in front of the house. xD Running away. Frozen, with a huge "TO BE CONTINUED..." XD


SO YEAH. That's all I can remember. o-o Enjoy..

And you know.
You can break me down.
You can rip out my heart.
You can tear me apart.
You can swear you never ever loved me.

But I will still always love you.

Even if my heart shatters into a million little pieces.
I'll cut my fingers picking them up.
Just for one more moment with you.

Moocat says (7:28 AM):
Dump him, love.
Moocat says (7:28 AM):
Really, just for your sake.
Moocat says (7:28 AM):
I don't want you hurting.

Easier said than done.


When you spend so much time with someone..
You start to realize..
Everything reminds you of them.
And the hurt doesn't stop.
And the heart always hurts.
And you feel empty inside.

And after awhile..
You can't take it anymore.

I. I cant fucking take it anymore.
It hurts.
Why does it have to hurt so bad..
I'm sick of the hurt..
Why. Why. WHY.

HOLY FUCKING HELL ON A SHITFACED DASHBOARD.
I'M SO FUCKING STUPID.
SO FUCKING DUMB.SHIT.
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SOMEONE FUCKING BASH MY SKULL IN RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

Soooo...
Yeah.
Last week sucked.

Got felt up by my best friend. x_x Gabe kinda.. Had a lot of fun there. And ended up kissing my neck a lot. But I was really upset and numb so I didn't even bother to respond to anything and just let him do what he wanted. After all. He goes through taking care of my sorry butt.. Maybe he should get what he wants every once and awhile...

So I told Jade about it all. My little mafia princess. <3>.>

I keep.. having those things happen to me. And I found out the reason behind it all. and I found my saint who makes me smile and calm down enough. <3>
A]-AGE?
Now.. Seventeen.

B] - Birthday?
June 12th.

C] - Cell phone?
It my room somewhere, been disconnected for ages.

D]-Drink you had last?
Uh... Yesterday.. Gingerale.

E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO?
Hm. Eric prolly.

F] - FAVORITE COLORS?
Greeeeeeeeeeeen.

G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS
Worms. The bears give me headaches. xD

H] HOMETOWN?
Toronto. o-o

I] FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Chocolate fudge. WAIT. WHY ARE YOU YELLING?!

J] Just something you always say on IM?
"xD", "o.o", or ">>".

K] Killed someone?
I keeled yur fathurrrrrr. Mwahahahahaahaaaaa.

L] - Limeaid or lemonade?
Wtf is LIMEAID? o_o

M] Money or Love?
I thought that said "monkey or love"! XD But yeah. Love I guess.

N] Number of Siblings?
IRL? Four. Two blood brothers, two step-brothers. Online? So much more.

O] - ONE WISH?
For everyone to be happy. :3

P] Person you last commented?
Uh... Alana.. I think?

Q] -Quiet?
Yep.

R] - Reason you smile??
Friends. And the Sheep Squad. <3

S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD?
First Time - Lifehouse. NaruHina AMVs ftw...

T] -Time you woke up today?
Uh.. Iuno. >> I was too sleepy to look atthe clock. But when I did, it was 5:06AM. =D

U] - You like someone right now?
Yep.

V] - VEGETABLES?
Yum. :3

W] - WORST Habit?
Play with my fingers, or bite my lips when I get nervous. OH. And blushing. >_>

X] - X-RAYS?
Iuno? I'm so accident prone that my fmaily doesn't really bother with that stuff no more..

Y] - YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?
Ice creammmm.

Z] - WHY ARE YOU SO SEXY?
I'M SORRY. I BLAME TEH SEXY ON GENETICS.